Sometimes as I go about life I stumble across something that brings my loss eight years ago flooding back. When I do, I tend to drown in it, obsess over it. Really dig in and let the grief and emotion wash over me again. It keeps Casey close, and even though it’s sad and hard, later I am glad I didn’t let life move on so fast that I don’t stop and devote a little time every once in a while just for him.
Yesterday I was randomly surfing Itunes for music and came across Josh Groban’s song “You Raise Me Up.” I loved his voice and today spent some time learning about this young singing sensation.
A few minutes ago I ran across this song and knew I had to post if for you ladies. I decided to link to this version of it rather than the actual video for the song as it features a woman as the subject, a lost love affair, but when he actually sings the song without images, well…you’ll understand.
Don’t do it at work, if you’re susceptible. Save it for a quiet moment…just you and your baby.
Josh Groban singing “To Where You Are” on Jay Leno:
http://www.metacafe.com/watch/229538/josh_groban/
More information about Josh’s debut CD with this song. He’s done many CDs since:
Josh Groban CD
Take time out for this. It’s sacred time. And it’s okay to grieve. For hours, days, months, and even all your life. It’s how we humans are designed–to mourn our loss in order to hold our love and hope all the closer to our hearts.
Baby Dust: Deanna's Miscarriage Blog 
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March 2, 2007 at 1:04 pm
Cheryl
Deanna,
That song is absolutely amazing. It instantly brought tears to my eyes and memories of my sweet baby in heaven back to the forefront. I agree with what you said it is nice to have a little time every now and again to dedicate just to the babies that we love so much but that are no longer with us.
March 2, 2007 at 9:08 pm
Lori
Just discovered your site. The book sounds amazing and so necessary. There needs to be more quality fiction that tells the story of miscarriage and infant loss, so that society can become better educated as to how support these women and families.
I encourage you to check out my Blog, where I have shared some of my own perspectives as the mother of two heavenly babies.
I look forward to hearing more about your book!
March 4, 2007 at 11:58 am
Joy
I discovered your website last week and have been trying for a baby for a year and a half. Your sperm meets egg plan has given me hope. I lost my mother to suicide in December and the Josh Groban song touched my heart, and made me remember my mom.
Thank You
March 5, 2007 at 9:18 am
Kim(kmum)
I remember this song from when my loss in 2004. The other song that I still cannot listen to without crying is “Broken” by Amy Lee and Seether. My husband and I loved the song before we knew anything was wrong with the pregnancy and had it on cd. They day we got the bad news, we sat looking out at our backyard with the music on loud and that song played. There is about a month left now before the 3rd anniversary of the worst day of my life, and I still think about her every day.
March 8, 2007 at 9:33 pm
beezner
As a father who had to bury his son over 10 years ago, I understand all too well the feeling of going about life and being blindsided by the simplest thing that sends a wave of sorrow all over me. Sometimes people tend to forget that fathers grieve too. If anyone is interested in reading about the perspective of a father, feel free to read my story in the article entitled, “A Father’s Grief…”
Deanna, thanks for this article about tears being revisited. It is very touching.
Be well.
March 31, 2007 at 9:51 am
Ceri
I walked down the aisle to that song last year. Not even one year married and my husband and I suffered a m/c in Feb this year. That song has truly become our song. Thanks for sharing it.
March 31, 2007 at 9:54 am
Ceri
I just went to the song and realized that I walked up the asile to “You’ll raise me up” I guess another one of his songs have made an impact on my life
April 5, 2007 at 2:15 pm
Diana
Hi Deanna,
My name is Diana and recently have blogged about crying, even after all the years.
My children are still dear to me and I will proudly cry for them always.
I would love for you to visit my website someday. I have created a scrapbook kit for our community and hope that the product will appear on Oprah next month.
http://www.justacloudaway.com
Mother of Angels
Diana
August 25, 2007 at 11:08 am
tasha
I just discovered your website. I had a miscarriage about 5 weeks ago. I thought that I was on my way to “putting it behind me” until I started reading info on your sight. I started what is hopefully my period. While reading, I started having cramps and thinking about the miscarriage. However, I want to thank you for this site. I feel more comfortable knowing that my grieving may last as long as I want it to. It also makes me feel good to know that I am still a mommy to an angel. You have inspired me. God Bless you and your family.
October 12, 2009 at 12:28 pm
lovinghenry
I have just discovered your site, Deanna. Thank you for being here.
We lost our little boy, Henry James, 2 weeks ago. I am sitting here balling my eyes out at Josh Groban. Thank you so much for sharing.
February 6, 2010 at 9:42 am
Dianne
Was having one of those moments and stumbled upon this site.
I too have the same experience where this song is concerned. I had actually recommended it to someone to play at the funeral for their child who was a still birth. My husband will usually turn it off or skip over it when we are driving in the car because he knows the impact it has on me. I’ve miscarried approx. 9 babies always in my 1st trimester which I consider a blessing that I didn’t have as long to become as attached but I feel the pain is still so very deep. I am amazed that I am not alone in what I hear and feel when I hear this song. God bless to all of you.